Once in awhile,
right in the middle of an
ordinary life,
love gives us a fairytale.
BITCHED.
EXITS.
AlanLim
Ben
Blue
Feifei
Haseo
HoweFoo
Ichi
INGgirls
Jackkor
Jackson
JeffChung
Jiaxin
Jieying
KimberlyFong
Ladylala
LouisLoo
Lynbestie
MichelleTeng
MelissaAnn
Peilingloves
Qiqiqingren
SarahJanemei
Sophiemei Tengdar
TongxDidy
Vampy Vmuii
Xintwinnie
Xinfang
Zhen
PAST.
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
May 2010
August 2010
All the recent conflicts have got me thinking about alot of things. Where is this relationship heading to? What plans do we have? What are the current problems that we have?
I'm unable to find the answer to any of these questions for some reason.
Yeah, I've said before that you don't know me well enough. Apparently I was right. Maybe some things I said do not spark an interest to you or whatsoever, thus you never took notice or something. But anyhoos, these don't matter because that "quiz" is just a small part of it.
Time & again I was hoping you'd be stronger. But instead of being so, you're acting more & more girlish by the day. Always sa jiao over little stuff. Maybe it's me but I really don't like it. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Expecting that you'll try & be the stronger one in this relationship. Expecting that you'll not always go all girly on me & sa jiao. Expecting that you'll be able to protect yourself or maybe even me. Guess I was wrong for hoping for all these huh. You're very girly by nature & nothing can change that. Sometimes I really wonder if this path is for you or not. I'm never the type to sa jiao for no reason so I'd suggest you not hope that. :)
Maybe we do. But other than staying at home & gaming/going online, do we have anything better to do? Since the incident with your cousin, all I wanna do is save up as much as we can. So if we don't stay at home & just use the pc, are we supposed to go out & splurge on movies & unnecessarily expensive dinners?
Trust you. How do you expect me to? Time & again you do things to break that. Though you say you'll change. Seriously, have you? Why do you have to do things knowing that I obviously hate it & only change/stop it when I get pissed off? If you never cared about what I like/don't like, then please don't act like you do only after I get angry. You would not have done those things, knowing that I don't like 'em & giving yourself trouble because I'll get pissed in the end & you'll not be able to do WHAT YOU WANT. Do I think of what I really want? Maybe I do. But, DO YOU?
Yes. I do wonder that too. Maybe it might be better that you have your own life. Doing your own stuff. Not having to worry about me being unhappy about it. Maybe it might be better for you? You wanna focus on your work, & you wanna worry yourself with your family problems. Then maybe you should really just move back home, do your job properly. Spend the money as & when you like without having to worry about me. Seriously. Maybe that's really the life for you. The life where you will be truly happy in. Because, somehow, you don't seem happy with what's going on with me. Not liking the fact that I spend so much time on one game, bored with the fact that you're not interested in the game but you have to play with me though you're hoping to be able to play other games. Oh don't say you don't because if you don't, you wouldn't have downloaded so many fucking games last week even though you know I don't like it. Since you know what you want, why not just live your life the way you want it instead of having to bother about me?
Seriously. Ask yourself. What kind of life do you want? & what are you gonna do about it? If you wanna go back to your old life that badly. Or you wanna live your own life, please just let me know. :)
I'm unable to find the answer to any of these questions for some reason.
Yeah, I've said before that you don't know me well enough. Apparently I was right. Maybe some things I said do not spark an interest to you or whatsoever, thus you never took notice or something. But anyhoos, these don't matter because that "quiz" is just a small part of it.
Time & again I was hoping you'd be stronger. But instead of being so, you're acting more & more girlish by the day. Always sa jiao over little stuff. Maybe it's me but I really don't like it. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Expecting that you'll try & be the stronger one in this relationship. Expecting that you'll not always go all girly on me & sa jiao. Expecting that you'll be able to protect yourself or maybe even me. Guess I was wrong for hoping for all these huh. You're very girly by nature & nothing can change that. Sometimes I really wonder if this path is for you or not. I'm never the type to sa jiao for no reason so I'd suggest you not hope that. :)
Maybe we do. But other than staying at home & gaming/going online, do we have anything better to do? Since the incident with your cousin, all I wanna do is save up as much as we can. So if we don't stay at home & just use the pc, are we supposed to go out & splurge on movies & unnecessarily expensive dinners?
Trust you. How do you expect me to? Time & again you do things to break that. Though you say you'll change. Seriously, have you? Why do you have to do things knowing that I obviously hate it & only change/stop it when I get pissed off? If you never cared about what I like/don't like, then please don't act like you do only after I get angry. You would not have done those things, knowing that I don't like 'em & giving yourself trouble because I'll get pissed in the end & you'll not be able to do WHAT YOU WANT. Do I think of what I really want? Maybe I do. But, DO YOU?
Yes. I do wonder that too. Maybe it might be better that you have your own life. Doing your own stuff. Not having to worry about me being unhappy about it. Maybe it might be better for you? You wanna focus on your work, & you wanna worry yourself with your family problems. Then maybe you should really just move back home, do your job properly. Spend the money as & when you like without having to worry about me. Seriously. Maybe that's really the life for you. The life where you will be truly happy in. Because, somehow, you don't seem happy with what's going on with me. Not liking the fact that I spend so much time on one game, bored with the fact that you're not interested in the game but you have to play with me though you're hoping to be able to play other games. Oh don't say you don't because if you don't, you wouldn't have downloaded so many fucking games last week even though you know I don't like it. Since you know what you want, why not just live your life the way you want it instead of having to bother about me?
Seriously. Ask yourself. What kind of life do you want? & what are you gonna do about it? If you wanna go back to your old life that badly. Or you wanna live your own life, please just let me know. :)
xoxo
Qing @03:55
Qing @03:55