Qing's

For the enjoyment of JOSEPHINE KWA

2010-09-19T23:40:00.004+08:00

I seriously don't understand why certain people just enjoy talking about the past. In case you haven't noticed, I have not fucking blogged in months. Neither do I talk about any of my personal stuff on facebook. & I don't update Twitter enough for anyone to know anything.

So yeah, what the fuck is your problem? Do you have a problem with me being happy? Why do you have to pop up and say a bunch of shits just when things are beginning to get better? Do you really enjoy seeing my family fall apart? Just because you don't have a fucking happy family doesn't mean YOU SHOULD RUIN OTHER PEOPLE'S HAPPINESS AS WELL. God. Get a fucking life, will you? Fuck off from my life. I never asked of you to be in it in the first place. So yeah, FUCK YOU. Just fucking stay away from me. Thank you. (:

2010-08-11T11:39:00.002+08:00

Please don't think that you can judge me just by reading my blog. (:

Blog closed -

2010-05-15T10:38:00.001+08:00

烦。

2010-05-08T18:06:00.001+08:00

IMY -

2010-05-07T17:20:00.001+08:00

感觉怪怪的 xD

2010-05-06T19:35:00.001+08:00

还是单身会比较好吧 xD

2010-03-25T16:48:00.004+08:00

Not really in the blogging mood recently so I'm just gonna post up a couple of pics. (:

These were taken in January I think..

✖ Baka dear ✖

Promotional YY (:

✿ Edited by Lovelove.

✿ Edited by Ah Dar.

✿ & my loves xD

Toodles (:

2010-03-12T03:58:00.001+08:00

淚了 - 曾沛慈

天快亮了
能不能別離開呢
沉默像首悲傷的歌
捂上視線卻模糊了

你要走了
也帶走所有快樂
甜蜜的片段散落了
疲倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星閃過
我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離
你怎麼放棄了

星空在閃爍
像你的眼淚
悄悄劃過
當你放開了手
離開的時候
有沒有一點捨不得我

淚光在閃爍
而我的眼淚忍住
不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候
你卻已經遠遠離開我

離開我了
夢醒了還剩什麼
我要的幸福消失了
你的心曾經屬於我的

那流星閃過
我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離
你怎麼放棄了

星空在閃爍
像你的眼淚
悄悄劃過
當你放開了手
離開的時候
有沒有一點捨不得我

淚光在閃爍
而我的眼淚忍住
不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候
你卻已經遠遠離開我

有過的快樂
我都記得
回憶還旋轉著
愛怎麼停了
我們都累了

星空在閃爍
像你的眼淚
悄悄劃過
當你放開了手
離開的時候
有沒有一點捨不得我

淚光在閃爍
而我的眼淚忍住
不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候
你卻已經遠遠離開我

2010-03-07T01:23:00.001+08:00

2008年9月14日、傍晚 6点04分、你第一次叫了我一声 darling..

2010-02-24T02:34:00.001+08:00

Skyping with Ah Dar, Didy & Ruru now. (:

2010-02-23T05:16:00.002+08:00

Insomnia. Can't seem to sleep & there's a lot on my mind recently. Contemplated blogging out my feelings as I'm not sure what would happened if I were to just blog everything out. Decided that I've got nothing more to lose as this friendship is nearly over anyway. Whoever this post is referring to, I'm just voicing out my opinions and feelings. :)

With so many things going on recently, I began questioning myself whether the relationship between us is even considered a "friendship". As much as friendships are very fragile, I doubt it's so fragile to the point that you don't even have any trust in me at all. It's really disappointing to know that that this is how I appear to be in your eyes.

I'm not a Saint, but I won't deny if I've done something wrong either. I understand that different people have different ways to solve or clarify a problem. But keeping mum & not saying a word will never help you clarify anything, let alone solving it.

I don't know what happened, but somehow, you seemed to have lost all your trust in me. Maybe it's something I've done. Or maybe you just don't care about this friendship anymore.

Whatever it is, the only thing in my mind is that you don't even respect me enough to try and clarify anything with me before accusing me blindly of something I've NEVER done.

Somehow, I have this feeling that if I've never bothered to ask you what the fuck exactly happened, I will never know why I'm being ignored by this so called "good friend" of mine.

Just because the style of writing used in the messages are somewhat the same of mine, it doesn't mean I'm the one who did it. You never did try to get this issue settled. When you came to know about this issue & the fact that someone is trying to sow discord between the two of you, you lost it & just jumped to conclusions without clarifying anything.

Does it ever occurred to you that you have never been able to find a motive or reason for me to do it? The only thing that you thought of was how similar is the style of writing between me & whoever that was. You have no reasonable reasons as to why you're accusing me of doing it.

Maybe our "friendship" for these past few months meant nothing to you, so you have had no qualms about blaming and accusing me of something I've not done.

But do you know how much it hurts me to know that I'm that distrustful in your eyes? Being ignored all of a sudden, not knowing what happened & actually thinking that maybe you're just busy with school & stuff only to realise that it's actually because you don't even have that teeny lil' bit of trust in me.

You chose to just ignore me & let this friendship slowly fade away over time instead of clarifying this matter with me. That shows how much you actually care about this friendship.

I don't need your sorry, I never did. All I wanted was a chance for me to clarify this matter. But judging from what you said to ___, I doubt you wanna try and save this friendship at all.

Just wanna say. Do what you deem is right. I can't stop you if you choose to not trust me. If insisting that I'm the one who did it would make you happier, then by all means blame it on me. My conscience is clear & I've got nothing to explain about. If you feel that I've not been a good enough friend the past few months, I'm sorry. & just because I've gotten closer to a couple of other friends doesn't mean I'm neglecting this friendship. I treasure my friendship with you just like how I treasure mine with the others. Just because you don't like a certain friend of mine & you're using it as an excuse to end our friendship, I've got nothing else to say other than GROW UP PLS.

I wish you're happy living your life as it is now. & hopefully your conscience is clear & that you don't feel guilty for wrongly accusing someone. :)

2010-02-23T04:47:00.006+08:00

又烦又乱

2010-02-04T19:24:00.003+08:00

My loves. (:

Teng Dar & Nii Baobei. 爱死你们了 xD

昨天和你通电话
突然有种莫名的陌生感
感觉好像已经不认识你了
有种离你很远的感觉
超不喜欢这种感觉的 :(

2010-01-15T14:57:00.016+08:00

心情原本好一点的，又被某人弄得烂透了

真的不明白

难道说，拒绝了人，就连朋友也没的做？

离婚/分手了，就要躲着对方?

真的觉得好奇怪

我和Chito结婚又没什么大不了

一个两个摆着什么死人脸给我？

一个躲着我，一个发脾气，另一个就不理我

这是所谓的喜欢一个人吗？

看到自己“喜欢”的人开心，真的有那么不好吗？

就不能为我开心一下吗？

有没有人想过，我虽然拒绝了，结束了，但我心里是有那么的想要继续做朋友？

以为我拒绝了人我会很好受？说要离婚，要结束，我很开心吗？

只会为自己想，想到自己有多么的伤心

不管是被我拒绝也好，说要离婚也好，你们会伤心我就不会？

难道我失去了朋友，我会开心吗？

哎呀，无所谓吧我也累了想怎样就怎样吧

刁蛮公主也会有感觉，会伤心的！

昨晚，我最重要的两个人，不知道为什么，吵了起来

觉得好为难不知道要怎么办才好

看到你们那样，我真的好伤心

两个都是我很重要的人

你们这样吵，我夹在中间，很难做人

真的好希望看到你们两不要再吵了

就算是为了我，就一人让一步，不吵了。。。

嗨。。

2010-01-15T04:55:00.002+08:00

蔡依林 - 你还爱我吗

夜里传来雨的声音轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

爱情需要一些呼吸偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗

好久没有你的消息心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音

你还爱我吗一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗

感情的路总让人好无助我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

你还爱我吗一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你你还爱我吗

2010-01-14T16:14:00.003+08:00

Show off wings awhile. xD

Endless

Small Angel

White Devil

Dark Angel

Angel

Lightning

Pink

Last but not least..

xD

2010-01-13T15:21:00.006+08:00

Rawr. Just realised how long I've not blogged.

Needed a place to pen down my thoughts so, here I am. xD

Been worrying about my student pass renewal issue. Thank God it was solved right before new year. (:

The first 2 weeks of 2010 has been rather crazy so far. Apart from waiting to get the student pass and going back to school, I've been home sitting in front of the pc almost everyday. Nothing to do, so play game lor.. xD

Was so pissed with dear that day that I just divorced my ID.

Found someone to marry for fun. & it turned out to be a huge mistake. =X

Lets just say he said a bunch of stupid things.. :)

Anyway.. 死老哥 came on to bully me last night. ): Long time on once also want to bully me. T.T But but but. Sei laoge gifted me the pink wing. :x And kicked me out from the room once. :(
Hehehe. Thanks luh 老哥. xD

So happy lor. Suddenly so many wings. xD
Last pic. Lazy to blog le :P

With ah dar and cuteeee. xD
<3 you guys

2010-01-05T17:50:00.002+08:00

GAVE UP. :)

2010-01-03T02:15:00.000+08:00

Videos of qingren & me.

Done by me:

Done by qingren:

<3

2009-12-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

[MashImar0]-
Giving up soon.

2009-11-27T00:00:00.004+08:00

Too lazy to blog..

Enjoy. XD

2009-10-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

Edited by Boey.

2009-10-02T04:29:00.000+08:00

2009-09-28T17:21:00.001+08:00

Finally done.

2009-09-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th birthday my dear girl.

2009-07-16T10:10:00.002+08:00

I guess everything's just a lie at the end of the day. :)

2009-07-15T10:30:00.002+08:00

Happy 10th month deardear.

Hehehe I love you. :)

Realised I haven't blogged a single shit in ages so here I am to clear the cobwebs & update a teeny little bit. (:

Well the past weeks have been relatively boring.

Just to sum it all up, daddy's knew about me moving out thanks to my stupid aunt's bitching. Though he made a little fuss about it at the beginning, it's all pretty much cooled now. Guess he realised that I will never wanna go back to that shithole of his sister's even if he kills me.

I'm still made to travel back to JB every weekend though. Seriously think it's a fucking waste of my time having to do this every fucking weekend. Going back to spend some time with my parents & sibs is one thing, having to spend my weeknights over at the shitass place with my aunts is just total bullshit kays. Seriously , why do I have to this huh? I'm totally wasting my time over there & everyone's so fake & everything. You've gotta smile at people you totally hate or don't give a shit about just for show. It's not like you genuinely care for one another. At least I know my aunt & I don't give a piss about each other. So why the hell do we have to make things tough for ourselves & put up an act just to make my everyone think that things are alright?

Okays, putting family aside. School's been shitty as well. Got barred for this term's exam again & it's not even my fucking fault to begin with! The fucked up finance department in MDIS didn't update the fucking system about my course payment the last term & the shitface coordinator just fucking barred me. Oh & btw I'm like pushing back grad by 1 or 2 terms, hopefully. It's all so stupid kays. That stupid bitch is like annoying the shit outta me, emailing me every other day bugging me about the payment when I emailed her the fucking receipt that I had after making the payment. Will it kill her to just fucking go through the system before bugging my ass & asking to see me in person?

If she's not the one bugging me, then it's my fucking senseless landlord who floods my text inbox with the dumbest & most retarded thing. News flash asshole. I ain't going anywhere. I don't need you to fucking remind me about every single fucking payment when I've been nothing but early about transferring the money over every single fucking month. So just fucking get off my back & stop flooding my inbox! It's not like you've done anything for any of us anyways. Yawns.

Aha & this is partly why I haven't been blogging much lately anyways. There's nothing else to blog about other than my complains. There are some other things I wanna comment about but I'm gonna stop myself before I get nasty. (:

Well, toddles everyone.

Till the next time I blog.. :)

2009-06-17T23:10:00.003+08:00

Hihihihi (:

Just popped in to wish my dear Peiling Happy birthday.

Happy birthday darling! You're finally as old as us. Wahaha now you can't say you're a xiaomeimei anymore.. :P

Anyways, hope you liked the pressie & that you had a good time.

Hope to see ya soon aights.

Lotsa love, Qing

2009-05-10T03:55:00.003+08:00

All the recent conflicts have got me thinking about alot of things. Where is this relationship heading to? What plans do we have? What are the current problems that we have?
I'm unable to find the answer to any of these questions for some reason.

Yeah, I've said before that you don't know me well enough. Apparently I was right. Maybe some things I said do not spark an interest to you or whatsoever, thus you never took notice or something. But anyhoos, these don't matter because that "quiz" is just a small part of it.

Time & again I was hoping you'd be stronger. But instead of being so, you're acting more & more girlish by the day. Always sa jiao over little stuff. Maybe it's me but I really don't like it. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Expecting that you'll try & be the stronger one in this relationship. Expecting that you'll not always go all girly on me & sa jiao. Expecting that you'll be able to protect yourself or maybe even me. Guess I was wrong for hoping for all these huh. You're very girly by nature & nothing can change that. Sometimes I really wonder if this path is for you or not. I'm never the type to sa jiao for no reason so I'd suggest you not hope that. :)

Maybe we do. But other than staying at home & gaming/going online, do we have anything better to do? Since the incident with your cousin, all I wanna do is save up as much as we can. So if we don't stay at home & just use the pc, are we supposed to go out & splurge on movies & unnecessarily expensive dinners?

Trust you. How do you expect me to? Time & again you do things to break that. Though you say you'll change. Seriously, have you? Why do you have to do things knowing that I obviously hate it & only change/stop it when I get pissed off? If you never cared about what I like/don't like, then please don't act like you do only after I get angry. You would not have done those things, knowing that I don't like 'em & giving yourself trouble because I'll get pissed in the end & you'll not be able to do WHAT YOU WANT. Do I think of what I really want? Maybe I do. But, DO YOU?

Yes. I do wonder that too. Maybe it might be better that you have your own life. Doing your own stuff. Not having to worry about me being unhappy about it. Maybe it might be better for you? You wanna focus on your work, & you wanna worry yourself with your family problems. Then maybe you should really just move back home, do your job properly. Spend the money as & when you like without having to worry about me. Seriously. Maybe that's really the life for you. The life where you will be truly happy in. Because, somehow, you don't seem happy with what's going on with me. Not liking the fact that I spend so much time on one game, bored with the fact that you're not interested in the game but you have to play with me though you're hoping to be able to play other games. Oh don't say you don't because if you don't, you wouldn't have downloaded so many fucking games last week even though you know I don't like it. Since you know what you want, why not just live your life the way you want it instead of having to bother about me?

Seriously. Ask yourself. What kind of life do you want? & what are you gonna do about it? If you wanna go back to your old life that badly. Or you wanna live your own life, please just let me know. :)

2009-05-05T17:39:00.002+08:00

I splurged again last night & got these.. ):

& I'm not gonna be blogging for the time being because all I had since last week was more & more anger welling up inside of me.
Happy belated birthday to Jieying though. :) Hahaha you're as old as I am ler! & I hope you enjoyed yourself that day ehhs! :P

2009-05-01T05:21:00.003+08:00

Three's a crowd.

It's 5am in the morning.. But somehow, I don't know for whatsoever reason, I can't sleep. Just been thinking about certain things. Looking at the picture, I'm feeling somewhat like the red rose. Though I'm there as well, but somehow I feel different, like I don't belong there or something. It's like we're from two different worlds.

Maybe I'm being paranoid. Maybe I'm just insecure. Or maybe, it's just pure jealousy. Though we've been together for 8 months, but something inside me feels kinda threatened by your ex in a way. In the way that I'm not as good as she is, or that certain things I do can never measure up to her. Or probably that I was unable to make you as happy as she did. I don't know. It just doesn't feel good, the feeling seriously sucks to the max alright.

I don't know what I should do. There are moments when I really don't know if we're meant to be or not. Somehow, deep inside my heart, I keep feeling that I'm not for you. You deserve better. Someone who won't lose her temper that easily, someone whom cares a lot about you & actually treats you well.
Listening to you tell me about your Secondary School/Poly band mates so happily, it makes me feel inferior in a way. It's like.. I can never make you that happy, that carefree. Though you may say you're happy being with me, somehow the happiness I see in you when you talk about 'em is different. Just pure happiness with no restrictions. It really makes me question whether you're truly happy with me or not.

You're not the only one who goes through the archives in my blog. I do the same for yours, it's just that I don't say much about it. Looking through them, your life in the past seemed so eventful. Always with a story to tell in every post. & they all seem to be happy memories. Happy times you had with your friends.
But for some reason, you don't have such things going on now. & maybe that's the reason for the lack of happiness in your life. Like I said, I might be paranoid, or insecure or plain jealous. But this is all I'm feeling right now. Or rather, it's what I've been feeling recently.

You know I love you so much. But I want to see you smile as happily as you used to. I feel so inferior & helpless for not being the one whom can make you smile like that. A smile or laughter with absolutely no worries. Can I see it happen while we're together? Or what I'm capable of giving you is just unhappiness or even sadness?

I'm sorry if my way of caring is intimidating to you. Or even making you suffer. But I do care. & I'm constantly worrying about you. So afraid that something might happen to you if I were to not be by your side. So afraid that I will lose you one day.
Do you know how bad I felt about not being able to come out & be with you on Monday because of my stupidity? I was worried about you being all alone at home. Worrying that you might skip meals & worrying about you going home all alone. But somehow, every single time, my worries turn into frustrations & I end up flaring up at you. I really do not mean it. I really do care & I'm just so afraid of losing you. I'm sorry if my words are harsh but I really do care. Always did.

Maybe you're feeling as insecure as I do. Worrying that I might have a change of heart in the future. Afraid that I might be swept away by some guy who likes/treat me well. I don't know what I can do to assure you other than tell you that I love you. I love you. & I will not stop loving you for as long as I can. We've been through so much these past 8 months. & we've such a long road in front of us. Though they won't be any easier than those that we've walked through, but rest assure that I will be there to walk through 'em with you. :)

2009-04-25T01:41:00.002+08:00

Rawr.
Hectic week. I've been a good girl & gone to class okayyy. (:

Mom & Dad sort of "fetched" me into SG early Monday morning cuz Mom had an appointment at ME. Accompanied her for a little bit before heading to class. Oh boy I really dislike my GBE lecturer alright.. He just kept going on & on about some random issues & I actually fell asleep. Gawd. Damn boring aight. If I can avoid his classes, I will.

Heh. Sorta slacked off for a bit on Tuesday & Wednesday but I was back to being a goody girl on Thursday & attended the CIA tutorial. && I even participated in class discussions alright! AND that is something that I don't usually do.

Oh oh. Z came over to our place on Weds evening to chitchat with dear & I before heading out for dinner at MadJacks over at Jln Kayu. *Thanks daddy for the treat.* It was a really really late dinner because someone was like fawning over XDO & was like trying it out? Oh wells. It's fun & I'm looking forward to more dinner dates with 'em again. :D

Gonna head back to JB tmr afternoon again. :( Really don't wanna go back home but I guess I don't have much of a choice.. It's not that I don't care about my family. But I just wanna spend my time with dear instead. If only dear could come over to stay with me for the weekends.. If only.. :(
Anyhoos. Imma gonna have a free ride back to JB tmr though, thanks to daddy & Z for offering to give us a ride in to JB as they're going in tmr as well.

Guess I'll stop here for now.. Wanna go catch my movie.. XD

2009-04-18T03:29:00.004+08:00

Rawr.
Too bored..

:D

2009-04-17T03:48:00.003+08:00

Well, I know that this post is kinda late.
But still, better late than never right. :)

Happy 7th month dear.

Just wanna let you know that I love you sooooo much kays. All I want is to be able to spend every single moment with you. Playing games with you, watching movies together. Anything. As long as I can spend every moment with you, I've no complains. These 2 weeks have been amazing. The feeling is like we're really married or something. Coming home from school to see you, cooking meals together & just sleeping with you. I'm getting so used to this I actually feel darn uneasy when I go back to JB because you're not right beside me. Nothing is more blissful than being able to just lie there in your arms.
I know that my temper hasn't been very good recently. I promise I'll try to curb my temper & not flare up at every little thing.
Oh wells. Lets just look forward & spend every moment happily kays.
Darling, I love you.

2009-04-13T12:34:00.002+08:00

This is like my best result yet.
But it's in ~~showtime~~ mode though.. :(

2009-04-13T03:14:00.009+08:00

Dearest Cookie mei,

I'm sorry you can't kidnap me because I need to stay in SG with your jiefu. If not she'll be very lonely lehhh. Unless you have the intention of kidnapping her as well?
Heh. I like body art like tattooing & piercing so no need to envy me lahh. Piercing, if you really like it then go ahead & pierce lah. At most when you don't want it anymore, just leave it to close? No worries you're still young. Loads of time for you to get rebellious & go pierce your whole ear. (:

Love,
Qing jie

Well it's time for bed so here's a goodnight kiss for y'all.

Toodles (:

2009-04-13T01:34:00.003+08:00

Rawr. I shall be lazy & summarize my whole week in a single post. (:

✿ Mon: Tutored the 2 kids then hung around Karl's block with dear & her for a little while playing kiddy games & winning more games before heading home.

✿ Tues: Went to the polyclinic with dear to get her MC cuz someone skipped work again.. =X Went to a lan shop at AMK to play a couple of hours as well. & I might add, it's not a very nice place with all the stupid ahbengs with their freakin' limited vocabulary which only consists of the word jibai.

✿ Wed: Went back to my aunt's place because my parents were in SG. Oh joy. Made me go all the way back for nothing except being questioned by my aunt. Total waste of my time. =.=

✿ Thurs: Was supposed to go tutor the 2 kids but I was too lazy so called up & said I won't be there. Meant to go to JE with dear to pick up her laptop but it was kinda late when we reached Woodlands so we decided to just collect it another day. Went grocery shopping with the intention of just buying a little food to cook but we ended up with bags of stuff. Went home after that & spent the night cooking. Well. The food's not bad, I guess. Heh. :D

✿ Fri: Good Friday. But that day wasn't that good afterall cuz mom was bitching about me not being back despite not having anything on for the day. Whatever it is. All I know is that she made things difficult for me by asking me to travel all the way back. Thanks dear for accompanying me in to JB though. (:

✿ Sat was shit so I'm not gonna blog about it. Went to sis' performance this afternoon & it was alright, 'cept for the many kids sitting nearby who kept running around or talking nonstop. Bunch of idiots. Retarded parents with a bunch of retarded kids. Other than that. The concert in all was quite alright.

Time for the pictures.
These were taken when we were on our way back from Woodlands on Thurs..

& there was this fucker whom was sitting in front of dear & I...

He was like having seizures or something. Just can't bloody sit still for the entire busride. Ugh. Disgusting ass.

& some of the pictures that were taken on our way back to JB..

Anyhoos. I can't wait to be back in SG tmr. Get to see dear & hug her to sleep at night. Rawrrrr. I can't waitttt. :p

2009-04-06T03:49:00.002+08:00

Disappointments & more disappointments.
That's all I ever get at the end of the day anyways. Time & again you break the promises you make. Honestly, is it so hard for you to keep them? If it is, I think it's better to give up, don't you think so? All I'm asking is you not to do the things I hate but whatever I say seems to fall on deaf ears & don't matter to you in any way. Oh for Christ sake. It's been 6-7 fucking months & yet you can't even keep a fucking simple promise you made.

Everytime I flare up, you'll have loads of excuses. Yup I'm too demanding & you can't handle it. Since it's so tough, give up then. Like I said, maybe it will be better if you just live your own life, a life without me in it. You can focus on your work, which you obviously care about, alot. & you can do whatever you want after that, sleep whenever you want without anyone flaring up at you. Isn't it a better life? It seems to be the life that you want anyways.

I don't wanna go back there. & when I say that, it upsets you. So what exactly do you want me to do? Go back home & watch you sleep? Your sleep is obviously of first priority. & no matter what I say is useless. It won't matter whether am I home or not anyways. All you want is your sleep. Even when you've not been to work for days. So yeah. Anything luh. It's your choice because nothing I say is of any use & I'm sorry I'm not as exciting as your family for you to wake up so early. (:

2009-04-05T21:56:00.003+08:00

RAWR.
Was home the whole day & I've been playing with my photoshop. I've nothing much to edit 'cept for the xdo screenshots. Lol at least I've some product.. A new signature for the forum & a profile picture which I can't use for some reason. Ohwells. Just hope that the darn admins can remove my mod status.. (:

I wanna play my game but the stupid server is down, again. Sigh. Expected since it's a Sunday night. Their servers have been down every Sunday night for the past two months. Guess it's a matter of time before CiB closes? LOL.
Anyhoos, on a lighter note, I've gotten my super chio wings & I'm so lovin' it. Heh. Since I've pretty much collected all already. I shall stop spending so much on the game.. *promise*

Here are the superduperchio wings that dear & I got..

&& the profile picture that I did..

2009-04-05T02:55:00.003+08:00

Finally! I'm done with the template!
Simplicity isn't exactly the simplest thing to achieve I presume. But anyhoos I'm fucking glad I'm done with it, for now.

I've my reasons for creating a new blog. I'm seriously in need of a diary where I can just write whatever I feel. Changing the url of my old blog doesn't seem to do the trick because my stalker would probably find my new url in a matter of days. Seems she like it so much, I shall just leave my ol' blog there for her. Since I'm sucha nice girl kays. (:
I'm seriously looking forward to the day when I can fucking get away from my annoying, inconsiderate & spastic aunts. Rawr. Yes I do hate them to this extent & I don't give a shit what anyone thinks about me for these comments. :D

Whatever. I'm just happy that I can resume blogging about my meaningless crap about my boring & stupid life. & YESSSS. Freedom from blog stalkers who comment about every little shit I talk about & starts saying bullshit to my parents. I don't need nobody to tell me what to do with my life nor whether or not I should be in a relationship with anyone. Whoever thinks that I will listen must be fucking stupid.

I didn't meant for my first post to be so full of anger but someone just pissed me off with her patronizing attitude, as usual. So yeah. I'm sorry I'm ain't any of those holy & goodytwoshoes friends that you have now but I do know that I definitely see you as one of my closest friend, someone whom I could confide with, someone whom I would first think of when I have the latest gossip. But you obviously don't think of me this way so yeah, all I can say is I'm sorry I'm nothing like them & I will never be.